Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Deployment Sucks

 Two weeks had passed since Rainer had left and I hadn't heard a word.  I wanted to kick myself for being so stupid as to fall for his sweetness and his sexy military muscles.  I wanted to kick myself even more when I realized my monthly visitor was LATE and I started getting sick every morning.

I decided to take a test, hoping I was wrong.  Sure enough.....it had two lines.  I was pregnant with Rainer's baby after a one night stand and what's worse...I had no idea if the father was alive or dead.

Meanwhile, what I didn't know was that Rainer was desperately trying to repair his computer.  He was in Iraq and was dying to talk to me, but the computer on base was broken.  He worked day and night to fix it but he couldn't!  Of course I had no idea this was going on.  And we hadn't exchanged phone numbers so I guess he had no other way to contact me.

I tried to just keep myself busy....cleaning....job hunting....puking...cleaning some more.  But all I could think about was Rainer.  I hadn't told him I loved him...and now I'm carrying his baby but I don't know if he's even alive!  A few days later, I got a letter.  That's right....a genuine snail mail letter.  I didn't even know those existed anymore!  It was from Rainer!  He told me that he had been reassigned to the base in Riverview and would be coming home!  He explained how he had tried to contact me but the computer was broken, and he told me that he missed me, he loved me, and he couldn't wait to see me!  I was elated.....and suddenly terrified.  I was starting to show by now and it would be a bit awkward to say the least.  Still, I was excited to see him.

A few nights later, Rainer was finally home!  He didn't even go to his own house - he came straight to mine.  That says alot.  He hugged me, kissed me, and it was as if we had never been apart.  I decided to stop focusing on the fact that we met, fell in love and created a baby all in a 24 hour period......I was in love, and this time I told him so.

Rainer's reaction to my pregnancy was unexpected.  He didn't hesitate at all....he was thrilled instantly!  He asked me to marry him right then and there.  I accepted, and we eloped at City Hall!

Over the next few months, Rainer moved in with me and we started planning for the baby.  Our tiny house was just not going to cut it.

We started remodeling the house...we knew it was going to be a long process though.  We wanted to add a basement for sure, we had hoped to maybe rent it out and pocket the cash.

Our tiny basement.

While Rainer was working on the house, I was writing a book - my very first novel, which Rainer had suggested I start since I was a literature major in college - and suddenly I felt this horrible pain in my belly!

Moments later, Ashlyn Zen was born!  We were both thrilled to be parents!

Ashlyn was a wonderful baby....she hardly even cried!

I started making use of the basement...I worked tirelessly on my first book.  I was determined to make it a smash hit!

Meanwhile Rainer worked hard on the military base.  We knew he could be deployed again at any time, but we just hoped that wouldn't happen.  Our happy little family couldn't be happier!

And then...........as I was about to sit down and eat some Goopy Carbonara, I felt a wave of nausea hit me.  My first thought was...oh boy...here we go again!

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